Reflection, not the one I see when I looking the mirror but the one that comes when thinking about the past, the present and the future. Knowing full well I cannot and will not ever be able to reverse anything in the past but I can change the future or at least do what I can to help mold it.
I believe with my whole heart that everything happens for a reason, people walk into our lives at precisely the right moment and exit stage left in the same manner. Who would have thought that I would be such the lucky girl who after watching the wedding planning come together as it has so very quickly as if all the elements were puzzle pieces cut to fit together perfectly, this sweet person would emerge that soon I will get to call my sister in law.
When she found out that we were getting married she immediately started to help me with the plans. She helped me find the venue, which is absolutely perfect. She went with me dress shopping and picked out my dress, that is perfect and not at all what I thought I would pick for myself. She has helped with so many things, they are too numerous to list and for her I am truly grateful. She has been the buffer to resolve situations and she is the head of the "Bridal Secret Service."
She has listened to me about concerns, we have discussed certain things on our front porch swing which is referred to as "Vegas" meaning speak freely it goes no further. We have shared bottles of wine, wondering if we could make it to World Market before it closed or if 256-togo would deliver wine. She also introduced me to Mojitos and we will be having a "for real" wine tasting in a couple weeks.
There are regrets I have with our relationship. I wish, though I know the past cannot be changed, that I would have given her a chance before now. There was a division of friends back a couple years ago where I was hurt tremendously, so I walled up and was not letting anyone in to hurt me again. That was truly my loss and for that I owe her an apology. The only solution is to move forward. Thank goodness for second chances because honestly without her support over the last few months, planning and certain situations would not have been ironed out so smoothly.
After discussing with Nik, I have the privilege of having her stand up with me as my Matron of Honor on our wedding day. I cannot imagine anyone else helping me get ready, supporting me on that day, and sharing these memories that we will be making.
I am so lucky, not only am I marrying my best friend, I am getting a sister in law and friend, Ily.
